finding some space

Its been a pretty torrid six months with not much margin for blogging. Now that we’re back in the yurt for a couple of weeks that will change. If anyone is interested in following our musings you can find them here.

playing with my emotions

In a box up in the top of the wardrobe somewhere is a manila folder containing my notes from the subjects I studied 25 years ago on teaching modern languages. On the front, in my handwriting is: “The thought comes from the emotion, not the emotion from the thought.” I remember a teaching practice lesson where I had year 7 kids pretending to be aeroplanes, zooming around the room reciting the Japanese word for plane. The idea was that the young students’ capacity to recall the vocabulary would be enhanced by association with the physical activity.

This morning I lay in bed, tempted to forgo my Sunday morning exercise routine. Didn’t the weatherman say it was going to be 7 degrees or some ungodly temperature outside? Fifteen minutes later my hands were numbed by the cold only a few minutes into my 10 minute ride to the gym. People waited at the tram stops down Lygon St rugged up in coats and scarves on their way to who knows where; but as we glimpsed eye contact there is that knowing connection … we’re both up early on a beautiful cold Sunday morning while most other people are still in bed.

As I peddled against the freshness I marvelled at how I could be enjoying the experience when only 15 minutes before I couldn’t have imagined there would have been anything pleasant about having left the warmth of the covers behind.

Given what I have ahead of me this week, it was timely reminder that choosing an appropriate physical reality can drag my unwilling emotions and ultimately my thinking to where it needs to be. If I wait until I feel like it, I will be either resentful or ineffective or both.

Of course it’s not all that matters, but being intention about getting the physical stuff right does a lot to adjust our attitude. Even though my first inclination was to sit on the couch, choosing to sit in the winter sunshine on the back steps this afternoon helped me get in the mood to kick the soccer ball with Johanna. Ironing my shirts and making sure the shoes are shined ready for the corporate meetings helped get me in the right frame of mind for what will invade my world tomorrow.

My choice to get up early this morning was a good reminder that I do not need to be a victim of my feelings … adjusting the sensual inputs can make a real difference to how I feel and what I think.

strange familiarity

Maria grew up in some of the most isolated rugged territory I have been to, Tasmania’s south west. Her dad worked with the Hydro during the days when damn building and servicing attracted migrant workers from Southern Europe in their droves.

She had not returned since she left after year 10 more than 20 years ago. A few years back, we took a week and did a return pilgrimage. Tulla was drizzly, cold and dark. Forlorn and desolate. The mountains surround it, covered in dense bush, the clouds hanging low, obscuring the tops. All the buildings in ‘old Tulla’ are temporary fibros, intended to serve the community for a few years. They are still there as homes and shops decades later. A young kid sits in a bus shelter playing games on his mobile phone in the late afternoon drizzle. What else is there to do. For me it was strange and eerie. For Maria it was familiar and even comforting.

Her old primary school in Strathgordon was the only one in Australia to have a covered playground to allow the kids to escape the rain. One famous time it rained for six weeks non stop.

Tonight I am thousands of kilometres away in Tabubil. The average rainfall here is 8.5 metres per year. As I sit here in a vacant lonely guest house, the sound of the downpour is loud and constant. As I drove around this morning I had this uneasy feeling of being in a strange yet familiar place … then it dawned on me … I could have been in Tulla. Dense forests cover the surrounding mountains and the clouds hang low.

I am working with a group of 35 people, from the newly formed Ok Tedi Fly River Development Program, PNG locals committed to delivering development programs to the people of the Western Province, especially those in the 152 villages along the Fly River who are affected by the mining operations at Ok Tedi. As we drove into the golf club for a workshop this morning, I glanced right up the valley and gasped as I saw what could be described as a massive gravel glacier snaking down the mountain. Ian, then walked me to a point where we could see through the trees to where the mountain has been systematically de-peaked over 30 years. I have not before had a sense of the earth being raped like I had this morning; the mountain range stands there, its dignity stripped away, the river dying at its feet.

Just when I thought it couldn’t rain any harder, the noise increases.

tapestry of a day

I am fortunate to have variety in my work. I wouldn’t change it, but it comes with the challenge of focussing on the task at hand rather than being distracted by what has happened before or what comes after. As I look back over the day it is a rich mix.

I wagged my Tuesday morning swim in favour of some family farewells. I had a city meeting to punctuate some tricky people issues in an organisation I am involved with then a discussion to plan for an upcoming Board meeting. Back to Roslin and the usual e-correspondence. It was cold in Melbourne today … I wore a woollen top for the first time this year … the grey drizzle was both miserable and enjoyable with the experience of changing seasons.

I sat in my exit row seat, looked up and landed eye contact with a bloke sporting a Carlton Football Club cap, worn backwards. “Did you go to the game yesterday?” I asked. His polite but indifferent face transformed as if he’d recognised a long lost friend. He pumped his fist and looked at the floor as if showing off his bicep … people were juggling their carry on bags between us so the words were few, but the shared emotion has palpable.

Maria and I had gone to the game expecting to witness a Carlton loss. Geelong’s 3rd quarter last week was apparently as good a football as they have played in their recent years of dominance. That our fleet footed young guns beat them at their own running, play-on, risk taking game was heart warming to the faithful who are willing this young team to realise their promise ahead of time. I remember thinking midway through the 2nd it was all about belief … psychology is a funny thing.

I took out my reading and got started before we had pushed back. I got to the last page just as we started out decent 3 hours later, my head swimming with the possibilities and challenges ahead of the organisation I am working with this week. While I was immersed in strategic planning I wished I had the time to engage the couple beside me in conversation who spent much of the trip north watching TED Talks on the bloke’s iPhone.

The phone call home after dumping my bags on the hotel room floor bought news from the regular hospital visit that is one of our children’s lot. The news was sobering. I wish I was home.

And now I am on the water front; spicy Indonesian noodles and a cold beer filling the gap after resisting the Jet Star fare. The night air is warm and the relaxed Japanese tourist language is undulating around me. The misty and cold Melbourne air a world way.

Sadness, regret, resolution. Celebration, concentration, anticipation. Helplessness, satisfaction, tiredness … what a day.

never go to work again part 2: e-distractions

It’s Monday morning and I’m scanning the week ahead so I’m clear what the key deliverables are. As I’m doing so I find myself tempted by one of the key dimensions of the ‘turning up’ syndrome discussed in my last post. The inbox.

Now this is not a new thought, for years now people have been lamenting the double edged sword that is email. But let’s be honest, it is probably the single biggest reason why people fail to get to the important strategic stuff in a typical office environment. Why? Because we’ve facilitated a business culture where email has higher priority than most other discretionary activity.

Walk in, say g’day, grab a coffee, then check your email. One hour later ….

The issue of course is not that there is nothing of strategic value in your’s or my inbox, its all the other stuff that gets mixed in. So the answer is unfortunately not as simple as ‘don’t look at it’, although some people advocate that you shouldn’t open your email until late afternoon.

For me, if there is discretionary use of any time in the morning I usually do (check it). The discipline is simply about not getting distracted. The only way this works for me is to have determined before I look at my inbox what the deliverables for the morning are. We’re talking about email, but the same can probably be said for Facebook, Twitter, online newspapers or any other ‘go to’ places.

This is related to the ‘turning up’ thing because if my daughter sits down to do home work and opens Facebook, or I go to work and open my inbox, I can think I’m ‘busy’, when I’m actually not doing anything productive in the bigger perspective.

So, this is not so much an anti-email post as a pro-stick to the deliverables one.

Everyone will navigate their own way through the managing e-distractions. Good luck defining your path.